The Adventures of Ryan Whiteboy McCoy

WHOA AND UPDATE!

2005-10-28T07:22:00.000-07:00

yoohoo peekaboo.. i seeeeeee YOU! hehehehehe

ryan rules my pools
ryan rocks my socks
ryan kicks my... sticks
ryan kills my pills
ryan dominates my idiosyncratic mating plates. HARHAR... (??????)

ugh just... just... ugh

The Odyssey

2005-08-12T11:01:00.000-07:00

What a life. Monday i get held at gunpoint... tuesday im molested by two gorgeous females... wednesday i sleep... thursday i actually go to school.... and friday i make out with (little to my knowledge) beyonce knowles. my life is an odyssey

but then i wake up and i realize its more like a merry-g-round... goin around and around and around... waiting for like, that split second where for some wierd reason the ride speeds up and then slows down again. oy vey hahaha soooo exciting!! :-( i need members for a metal band im forming. a drummer that can do double bass... basically a guy who has been playing for at least a year and half... but who ACTUALLY has been PLAYING for a year and a half. like everyday and shit. and then a bassist and a pianist. NOWW! come join my army people. haha what a hopeless plug... like anybody read this damn thing :-p anyway peace out my homies

ryan

Fourteen Candles

2005-07-24T21:03:00.000-07:00

Bittersweet tears soak dusty sheets and faded fictures burn into cornea
When cavitied memories fill with hollow smiles and jokes to ease the uncomfortable silence
Or the bleeding gums that color my lips when i lose complexion and grit my teeth
For Cries beneath Darkened insides mean no more tears can dampen these stiffened cheeks

When i sleep you weep with me
And in a dream it numbs the pain
When i wake and promise
To light your fourteen candles

a little something something i wrote in class so that i wouldnt break down and start crying or something haha. gotta release that shiat.

anywho... HOLIDAY! peace out homies

news theme TONIGHT ON CNN--- RYAN RULES

2005-07-22T10:01:00.000-07:00

anyways.... i got a call from my friend in the states. i was shocked at first to hear a valley girl on the other end with all the the likes... i was like... whoa! this is hot... hahaha. then she was like "dude its allie!" and i was like WHOA THIS HOT AND KICKASS! haha. she figured out how to call my cell from the states. some might say she is a genious of sorts yes. haha

anywho, im sitting here piggin out on mini oreos tryin to be hyper and listenin to slipknot. which by the way slipknot (whom i used to loathe entirely) is my band of the month. for about a month and a half now. *I felt the hate rise up in me...*

i feel like kicking the crap out of one of the many people i find irritating to the song Fucking Determined by Mudvayne. whew... its a pumper-upper of a song man. listen to it before a big game and i swear you'll win........ or foul out in the first 30 seconds from the massive amounts of evil mannerisms you would take up on the court/field after listening to it MUWAHAHA!

do you believe in signs? i do... maybe too much i think. i believe that if you want something to happen like lets say HYPOTHETICALLY you wanted to meet up with someone alot. and it was just so hard to even spike a conversation with them or get a hold of them. so you never get to ask them out or anything like that. and i you never hear from them so your too afraid to just message them or anything haha. i believe thats a sign that its not meant to work out... but maybe its not a sign. maybe it just means your not tryin hard enough? i dont.. oy vey. anywho ima go now

lovelove to al

peace out take care

-ryan

Dear FRIENDS,

2005-06-28T23:16:00.000-07:00

I AM SORRY! haha dudes i know i totally ruined your night... i had NOOOO idea that shit was gonna happen honestly. i thought i was fine by now... but then i got a little booze in me and i got kinda depressed... which is like the polar opposite of what i should have done haha. but yeah then i couldnt stop drinking. And i heard that i hit you guys.... im rrrrrrrrreeeeaaaaallllly sorry EJ and MIO. dudes.... i promise ill never go out at night (especially with you guys) again haha. so no worries... thanks for everything by the way. ill make it up to you. peace out

-ryan

check it out

2005-06-18T08:56:00.000-07:00

http://lyrics-r-us.blogspot.com/ <<<<< the second part of my "feelings of loss" series. damn these really help with the healing process. comment or dont comment... i dont care anymore really. take care peace out

Im Haunted

2005-06-18T03:06:00.000-07:00

"fuck me... for ive forgotten the ways of love
fuck me... for ive begotten the ways of hatred
love me... for ive forgotten the ways you shove
love me... for ive begotten those words you stated - i love you"

not sure why but i like it ^ haha

anywho... join up. even tho the people who read this are either close friends of bandido or people who know them well enough to actually have signed up already. but oh well... i have a job to do as a friend.

http://groups.yahoo.com/group/bandidoband <<<<< the band of my buds... join their yahoo group. show your support homies

Dear ___________,

2005-06-13T01:40:00.000-07:00

hey guys, its been a while since ive actually been able to get on and update something. and for this im sorry, coz i know you all just love reading my posts sooooo much. no im kidding. but check out my new song on my lyrics blog: http://lyrics-r-us.blogspot.com/

its one a series of songs. im not sure how many will be in the series yet but this is one of them yes. it was hella hard to actually write.. not because i had a mental block or i wasnt ready for it but rather because everytime id gather the strength to think about what i needed to think about to be able to write i would well up with tears and then i couldnt see the damn monitor. so respect it... and comment but dont criticize. Because the way it flows and what it says.. is what it is MEANT to be like. IF YOUR READ IT THEN YOU BETTER COMMENT. you dont necessarily have to say anything about it if you dont like it or if you dont want to. just comment to tell me you actually read it at least. Thank your, peace out

helppp me

2005-06-05T06:40:00.000-07:00

WHO KNOWS WHERE I CAN FIND THOSE LITTLE COMMENT BOXES TO PUT ON THE SIDE OF MY BLOG. you know those little things that people just type in their name and message and it posts in that little box so they dont have comment directly on my post because most ungrateful punks who read my blog read it and then dont comment coz they are too lazy!! arghers!

next post im gonna do that whole 5/10 questions thing. it should be rather fun. oh yes.. mio OR sabs if you read this... HOW do you change your blog settings so that instead of opening a whole new window when someone presses the comment link.. instead it just brings up that mini-window with all the peoples comments for that post in there. im interested yo... anywho peace out foos

pimpmastahman signing out yo! ... yuck

HEY!!!!!! all my loved fans come come... im back!

2005-05-30T21:30:00.000-07:00

ok ok ok alot has happened. first... i just got back from a nice 4 day vacation in Bohol at one of the nicest fuckin resorts ive ever been to... i mean it was niiiiiice.

so the first day we get to bohol the resort has a private tour arranged for us and they take us around in a van to different famous places around bohol like the chocolate hills and the river ride on a boat that you actually sit down and watch the view and see kids jumping off coconut trees into the river and you eat!!! the food was all fresh and delicious! the fruits were like freshly picked or something. oh my it was awesome

but then we got to the resort finally and we settled down in our rooms after walking through the resort to our bungalows (which by the way the rooms rock!) and you see a GIGANTIC infiniti pool over-looking a sweeeeeet ocean view. and then there is another infiniti pool right next to it that also has the sam view but this one has a built in bar right into the pool so you can sit on a stool and dip your feet into the pool and drink beer all at the same time.

so yeah we kayaked and swam and drank and chilled in our private jacuzzi. it was great man....

the only setback is that the resort was soooo romantic.. like the whole mood of the place and the way the thing is constructed gives you the nicest views ever... it made me feel all lonely and longing :( quick... someone come hug me and ill take you on a romantic weekend to bohol!!! :-p *females apply only... sorry ej* haha no but really it was awesome

and now im back to the stinky cramped city and i feel like i wanna shoot someone once again. i need a girl dude.. its fuckin lonely this summer... CUDDLE TIME! haha anywho im out see ya peoples

OMG ITS RYAN!!!

2005-05-16T23:59:00.000-07:00

yes.... you heard it! he is back! and black! oh ok not really but he is back so shoosh your toosh.

anywho, im friggin searchin the net for the code for makin one of those comment boxes on the side of my blog coz i forgot to save the link ej gave me... and i need that comment box because nobody ever wants to comment on my fuckin posts!! its like i come on here... type all this bullcrap for your entertainment... and you dont even give me so much as a pat on the arse!!!!! you all suck... so when i get this comment box you better comment in it. or ill bit your earlobe and nibble on your eyebrow! ........... sorry that was stupid. anywho.. back to my search. FORGET TO REMEMBER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! IS A GOOD SONG!!!!!!!!!!!! peace out my homies

I got this from Ephraim.. who got it from Ej haha

2005-04-29T17:29:00.000-07:00

if i were a month, i would be: December... i love snow.. even tho we dont get it here :-p
if i were a day of the week, i would be: saturday
if i were a time of day, i would be: 8pm
if i were a planet, i would be: planet x (you know.. the theoretical planet that is supposedly past pluto!)
if i were a sea animal, i would be: a dolphin.. compassionate and smart and purty creatures they are
i were a direction, i would be: nuetral i guess..
if i were a sin, i would be: i dont even know what the sins are hahahahahaha
if i were a historical figure, i would be: jimi hendrix! (only... with less skill... haha)
if i were a liquid, i would be: PEPSI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
if i were a bird, i would be: a crow.. dark/mysterious/fascinating/seductive! haha
if i were a flower, i would be: something green.. is there a green flower?
if i were a kind of weather, i would be: rainy... i love dancing in the rain. i wanna kiss the girl of my dreams and do that cinematic spin while lifting her up in the rain hahaha. looks fun :-(
if i were a mythical creature, i would be: DRAGON!!
if i were a musical instrument, i would be: guitar (of course)
if i were a color, i would be: green (not green minded mind you... sheesh)
if i were an emotion, i would be: unknown
if i were a vegetable, i would be: celery with peanut butter
if i were a fruit, i would be: apple
if i were a sound, i would be: the sound of your impending doom AND salvation at the same time
if i were a song, i would be: Pain of Salvation - Nihil Morari OR Iter Impius
if i were a movie, i would be: One flew over the coockoo's nest (even tho ive never seen it)
if i were a book, i would be: one flew over the coockoo's nest!!!!
if i were a food, i would be: fettucini alfredo!!
if i were a dessert, i would be: fudge brownies... get to much of me and you might get sick. im too sweet foooor you! hahahahaha
if i were a place, i would be: the mountains in oregon (wide open, truly fresh, truly pure, and truly free)
if i were a material, i would be: wood... sturdy but breakable
if i were a taste, i would be: tangy ;-)
if i were a scent, i would be: uuuh... whatever cologne im wearing? haha
if i were an object, i would be: a reeeeaaaaaallly loud amp
if i were a body part, i would be: eyes... you can use me to see that which eludes you.. i promise :-D
if i were a facial expression, i would be: that look wherein when you look at another person you like, and yours eyes meet.. and there is that awkward yet sweet moment for about 2-3 seconds that just makes you wanna... kiss em or somethng haha. and neither of you looks away quickly because you have already established eye contact.. haha
if i were a subject in school, i would be: the subject that you set the school ablaze... oh there is no subject like that? well fuck this question then!

>top 3 fictional places you want to visit:
1] Neverland
2] boracay (its fictional for me because no matter how hard i try..i cant get there!!! haha)
3] Middle Earth... when everything was green and magical! :-p

>top 3 existing places you want to visit:
1] Iceland
2] Ireland
3] New Zealand (crap.. theres a lot more!)

>top 3 weapons you want to master:
1] i must admit.. im not really a fan of weapons.
2] i guess my fists and legs... natural combat :-p
3]

>top 3 bands or musicians:
1] Pain of Salvation
2] Dream Theater/Symphony X
3] Slayer

>top 3 instruments you want to be good at:
1] guitar
2] keyboards and/or grand piano
3] drums

>top 3 songs that you love right now:
1] Pain of Salvation - Second Love
2] Pain of Salvation - Nihil Morari
3] Pain of Salvation - Imago (Homines Partus)

>top 3 super powers you want:
1] Flight
2] ability to heal others (even old age.. so i can grant imortality to those so deserving)
3] ability to say the right things at the right times at all times so i can make people feel better when they are blue... and make that special someone fall for me i guess haha. they are out there somewhere! :-p

>top 3 foods you could eat everyday for a year:
1] pizza
2] MACARONI AND CHEESE!!!!!
3] fettucini alfredo!

>top 3 writers or artists you like:
1] Da Vinci
2] Daniel Daniel Gildenlöw
3] Edgar Allan Poe (godlike writer)

>top 3 books or comics:
1] batman!
2] one flew over the cuckoo's nest haha
3] dragonlance chronicles

>top 3 comic strips:
1] that comic mio loves
2] dilbert
3] ??? i dont read comic strips much haha

>top 3 cartoon shows:
1] DAVE THE BARBARIAN HAHA
2] simpsons
3] south park

>top 3 movies you love:
1] CON AIR! (best movie of all time!)
2] matrix 1 i guess
3] Hitch... eve mendez (or however you spell her name) is sooooooo friggin beautiful. my heart has been captured :p

>top 3 cartoon characters you'd like to be:
1] that kid with the "fairy god parents"
2] SAMURAI JACK!
3] this little kitten in an anime show (dont know which one) that POPS out of this ladies breasts.... it was awesome. and her boobs are distastefully big so i mean... year round warmth! haha ok that was a bit perverted :-/ :-p

>top 3 movie charcters you'd like to be:
1] Cameron Po from Con Air
2] Batman from "Batman" (the first batman movie.. micheal keaton played him)
3] Neo

>top 3 people(dead or alive) you'd like to have coffee and conversation with:
1] Abraham Lincoln
2] Jose Rizal
3] Nina V. (i dont know how to spell her last name... but she is gorgeous.. and her voice is absolutely beautiful) NOO THERE ARE MORE!!... i need at LEAST 5 slots for this question haha

>top 3 occupations you'd want to have:
1] Blues Guitarist
2] Metal Guitarist
3] Hip Hop producer (but only the females... i wanna be surrounded by beautiful girls :-p..... just to for the company tho.. nothing more than that you pervs sheesh)

>top 3 quotes or sayings you like or like using:
1] ooooooh yeah!
2] FUCK YOU!
3] 9 times zhe powah! 9 TIMES ZHE PLEAZZHHAH!

>top 3 fictional monsters or creatures:
1] dragons
2] Elves (poetic/wise/AND beautiful... everything i want to be! :-p)
3] Wizards... coz they have those kickass cloaks and beards... and can woop your pootay with their cane!

>top 3 beverages:
1] Mountain Dew (regular or code red)
2] CHERRY COOOOOOOOKE!!! OOOOOOOOOH YEAH!!!
3] Coca Cola

>top 3 flavors of ice cream:
1] Napoleon
2] Dark Chocolate/Fudge Chocolate
3] Strawberry... gotta love dah strawberry!

>top 3 things you do when you are bored:
1] play guitar... alot
2] chat
3] make new entrie.......... like this one.

>top 3 things you have to have with you:
1] money
2] cellphone
3] guitar pick (wow.... ephraim's answers are perfect... ill just leave that whole thing the way it is :-p)

>top 3 animals you'd like to have as pets:
1] dog
2] toucan
3] siberian husky named Kain who has one brown eye and one blue eye

howdy howdy!

2005-04-28T18:35:00.000-07:00

this is definitely a peace of poop! hahaha yesterdays practice was hella fun.. but actually getting to the point where we could actually practice took some work hahaha. :-p

MIO IS IN BORACAY! lucky bastard! he was in a dru circle and fire dance :( :( unfair

anywho ima go now peace out

P.S. check out my other blog with all my poems/lyrics on it. i have two on their now.... comment too. i wanna know what you think :) :) spank you very much :-D

Tributary words from Hearts on the same page

2005-04-27T01:54:00.000-07:00

The following is a poem me and ej wrote together, alternating stanzas (taking turns writing a stanza) in tribute to a friend in need of more than words... but we are trying our hardest anyways.

To stand by you till the end of time, and beyond it
With each labored breath, uttering words for you to keep
And with looks from eyes that beat back relentless time, giving all one can need,
i confide in your promises and your kisses as you shall confide in mine
With every step time takes towards my fate,
hold me
With every inviting whisper that I get in cold nights to rest,
hold me.
And from every shadowed thought or nightmare wrought,
hold me
For in a fervor of passion i will beat back all that stands between you and our realm,
Now hold me for in doing so, i can hold on to all that matters, and all that has ever mattered
Like all things, this too, shall pass, we shall move on
One way or another, I will be with you; in spirit if not by body.
And from thought HE brings upon us a truth... that no matter what and how, like a bright blue sky all will be open for us for in time, with time, you and i will work wherever you go.

ROCK OUT WITH YOUR C*CK OUT!!!

2005-04-23T03:04:00.000-07:00

yeeeeeeah pantera bebeh!!! quick.. INTERNET HEADBANG!! hahaha how cool are we ej?? we headbanged together across an internet connection... doesnt get much more rock and roll than that :-p.

R.I.P. DIMEBAG! You are now among the gods where you belong!

aaah my crazy hyper-high is wearing off due to Dream Theater's relaxing song... Solitary Shell. So purty this song is. Yup yup, and now i will go play acoustic guitar because im feeling happy/nostalgic. :-) i love you all... come make love to me in groups!

((ok i dont know what the last part was about))

A Clockwise Destiny

2005-04-16T19:07:00.000-07:00

I was staring at the clock this morning at about 2am and there was nothing around me... no noise, no movement, no life.... just me and the clock. I could hear its ever so biting tick over, and over, and over, and over again. And as my levels of aggrivation came to a high because of the monotony of the clocks hands moving around and around with the same ticking noise over and over and over.... i had an epiphany. We are all.......... clocks. Ticking to a monotonous timing... trying our hardest to beat our way out of this thing we call life... tryin to find a way to break these shackles of redundance that bind us, but to no avail. So i ask you....... is it really that there is no way to beat the monotony of it all? OR..... is it just that we are trotting the wrong paths... paths that are straight and narrow..... maybe because we subconsciously SEE the path which holds secrets and excitement and much more imagination than even our 5 year old selves had... but we are too afraid to walk it. because we know that everything comes with a price....... especially our happiness.

*But there are a select few of us who have found our paths... the ones which hold our happiness AND our downfall all-in-one... and we call ourselves artists. BUT in reality all we really are... is human....... because only animals should have to live their lives in a straight line. We have all been given imagination... its just us 'humans'.. or as you call us 'artists'... which harness its existance*

TITLE FOR THE SONG WE ARE WORKING ON: Nostalgia Inamorata

What do you think Ej? Mio? if you dont know what the last one is its like latin for girlfriend basically. or more detailed would be a woman whom you have a fond feeling for a.k.a. *theoretically in love* with her

Blackened Attire (Funeral in Fire)

2005-04-15T23:58:00.000-07:00

i love makin poetic titles that mean something that usually the reader of my posts will never be able to interpret. :-D anyways.... on with the show.

so im thinking if i kill you... and you... and *you*........ and the whole lot of ****you**** there will be no imperfections of the human mind coz you guys wont be here to taint us..... the only problem is...... who are you, you, *you* and ****you**** ?!

aaaaaaah that makes you think dont it!! i know it does. hahaha

anyway im gonna spit out words and come up with some *hopefully* coherent poetic verse for maybe a future song. oh no in fact ill make a verse for the graphic i made on photshop called Inner Turmoil - Self Proclaimed Messiah

SELF PROCLAIMED MESSIAH by INNER TURMOIL

( InnerTurmoil = me and cito.. on monday ill try and lay this one out there :-D)

Provoke one taught of glory
Maybe share a path of horror?
Mediocrity equals insanity
and insanity is of human specialty

Cry too loud and no one will hear you
Blasphemy and human existance go hand in hand dont they young one?
Like train wheels that spin too fast...
we tend to derail ourselves..... and leave the truths behind

I am your Messiah
because i pretend to know the truth when you have no imagination
because i pretend to fill the youth of yourselves... feeding into your invisible eternity
I am your Messiah
because you know not where i came from and where i obtained my knowledge
mystery is oh so provocative... especially when you mystify them in groups?
Pray to me for i am your ONE to love
... because i am your self proclaimed messiah!

Oh the Ruin

2005-04-13T09:51:00.000-07:00

so tonight was ALMOST disastrous but thanks to my good friends/official band members of KING (and a *little* help from our alcoholism) it turned out hella cool. I got really buzzed today... and i had some HELLA deep conversations that not only made me trip out but also made me think. READ THIS BEFORE CONTINUING!

"Tell meHow are we supposed to survive?If we're acting like foolsAll dropping dead to stay alive?Someone tell mePlease just show meIf there's nothing to do, God we'll turn to youBut if we're an image of youI reckon you are just as puzzled and ugly too" - Pain of Salvation (NIHIL MORARI)

ok so we were talking about how mio looked at the stars and had this epiphany of how he was so insignificant compared to our "reality".... because i mean he can change a blade of grass and maybe a few minds but no matter how hard he runs, no matter how far he reaches, no matter how much he he thinks... he can never effect the universe. and then that got us to thinking about that quote up there... coz if we are an image of god then together... our flaws would equal perfection? or would the equal the perfect flaw? and then to a deeper layer.... every single flaw in this world is from human imaginiation. the "human flaw" is the ability to imagine.... because if we imagine it than we desire it. (Mio pin-pointed this out by the way) So i guess that means we shouldnt try to imagine for humanity and for the universe but rather *FUCK IT!* because i mean... if we really dont know the meaning of our existance and if we really are so insignificant in ratio to the universe... then why not just fuck it? imagine for yourself and only yourself... attain the riches you desire and die the happiest you can... because if you dont.. then what do you have?! nothin.. thats right. what.. helping people your whole life? trust me on this when i say it... when you are 80-90 and you look back and you have nothing but retirement home and a quilt blanket.. you are gonna beg god for another chance to be selfish... to never give up the chance to be for yourself and only for yourself.... its how it works. i dont know why tho.... i guess next time you come over mio... we will tackle that discussion hahaha :-D :-D good shit!!!

CS DRUNKEN ROUGH DRAFT! hahaha

2005-04-09T09:53:00.000-07:00

MIO! ima write a rough draft of the first part of CS while drunk :-p lets see if this works::::

Taste
and ferment those wills
ESCAPE!
and Take
for the youth of those who fake
My grasp
is like an aspen chill of time
Climb
the hills of dirt to chime
THE BELLS
Of hell i hold my line
to ring... your pure mind in crime
to tell
or quell your curiosity!
SEE!
the flow of all thats me!!!

Pedio-ala-maniac (get that mio?... i understand the meaning of all the lines but then again im drunk hahahaha)

alrite im done.. i cant write anymore coz im REALLY buzzed :-p peace out!

A NEW PHONE AND NUMBER!!!!!!

2005-04-07T04:39:00.000-07:00

yeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeehaw!!! finally!

ok so here is my number people! save it in your cells ;-). 09159151914

GLOBE... im a globe virgin so this my first time obviously... ive been a smart user forever now..... hahahaha. anywho gotta go play with my new phone! :-p

I SMELL OF DEATH

2005-04-02T03:52:00.000-08:00

actually no i dont.. i just heard that line from the slayer song playing in my living room (im in the house office and im blasting slayer in the other room hehehehehehee)

look at my penis!! no im just kidding... OK GO AHEAD AND LOOK IF YOU MUST! hahaha... slowly but surely my posts have become less musical in content and context :-p. ooh well

anyways i just thought id stop by hear and ramble on... GOOD LED ZEP SONG <<<<<<<<<>>>>>>>>>> ok ill go now.. good bye hotty people MWAH!

LOST CELLPHONE!

2005-03-28T19:01:00.000-08:00

ON MY BIRTHDAY!!!!! I turned 17 yesterday... but it didnt feel special at all because ive been saying im 17 to people for half a year now haha.

AND THEN I LOST MY CELLPHONE! so much for buying a new 7 string guitar this month... now i have to wait another month for two more paychecks just to get that damn thing. AH POOPY POOPERS!

New Poem (long time since ive posted on here)

2005-03-10T00:00:00.000-08:00

Vivid Colors
By: Ryan McCoy

Open the eyes to color that exists in a cage
A cage with walls and no doors
Once you’re in… there is no getting out
But who would want to escape from such a place?
Whom would desire the absence of such Vivid Colors?

“Me”, says the man inside the cage
“The thought seemed flawless at the time
But you see the person who was here with me… has disappeared.
Now the colors don’t seem so nice
The food does not taste quite right
My vision has dimmed and yet I’m still stuck
In this cage devoid of all light.”

Open the eyes to color that exists in a cage
A cage with walls and no doors
Once you’re in… there is no getting out
But who would want to escape from such a place?
Only the people who know that vivid colors deceive…
Only the people that are still trapped within.

Finished Project: This Damned Soul

2004-12-05T04:20:00.000-08:00

wow this one is late i finished this song like a week and a half ago... well not literally but i think its been like 3 to 5 days or so. anyways, its written in C minor key and its only piano and acoustic guitar. there is an instrument solo at the end as an outro, it is a piano solo. Lyrics have been written but only in sketch form... i havent yet transcribed them into notes and tried to put them with the song.

Date: December 5, 2004
Date Finished: September 27-30 (somewhere in there)

goodnight all

Words of Advice from me:

2004-11-16T01:00:00.000-08:00

Sometimes when you feel---
Like Letting go: just grab hold of and remember the things that matter most... and you will find the strength you need to carry on.

Sometimes when you feel---
Like Giving up: know that obstacles are merely placed in front of us as tests... and if a test can be made... then it can also be passed, so find your way around them and keep marching... you can't regret if you never quit.

Sometimes when you feel---
Like Hating someone: remember that people are people and just that... you hating them isnt gonna change a damn thing, so get over yourself and just forget about them. If they truly deserve to be hated then just leave them out of your life because thats just it... it is YOUR life... so therefore YOU choose wether or not that person stays and haunts you with feelings of sorrow and anger all the time.

Sometimes when you feel---
Like You have it so bad and the world frowns down upon your fortune: know that if you ever think like this, then you are feeling an emotion called self-pity. Self-pity is not only a cry for attention but also a self inflicted emotion. Forget about the "everyone hates me" or "no-one loves me... no-one cares... my life sucks... why is everyone else so happy and im still sad" routines and pick yourself up damnit! If you want to be happy like everyone else well then guess what, ITS YOUR JOB TO MAKE IT THAT WAY. All im going to say to you is this: Its YOUR ass that YOU have to wipe, YOUR mouth that YOU have to feed, YOUR heart that YOU have to mend, and YOUR life that YOU have to live. So go out their and do YOUR job.

Now i just hope that my words have helped you, whoever you may be. I have just seen to many people out there struggling and crying for help, and me nor any army of people can help all the people out there in need.. but im just trying to do my part as a friend, family member, lover, admirer, acquaintance, classmate etc. So if you read this... then REALLY read it and understand what im saying. This is ryan signing out, good night world.

Current Project: This Damned Soul

2004-11-15T06:17:00.000-08:00

ive decided that whenever i start composing a new song im going to post it on here and then post the feel and meaning etc of the song and then when i finish the song ill post again saying when ive finished it stating the date and how long the song is etc. Ok so here it goes.

Song: "This Damned Soul" OR "Chapter 1: This Damned Soul"
Feeling: Eerie/Scary theme
Instruments: Acoustic Guitar, Paino, Choir
Meaning: The song is about a man who is eternally cursed and how he is sentenced to the depths of hell. I am entertaing the thought of making this 1 part of a three part series of songs telling the story of this man from how/when he is cursed up until when he takes over hell (part 2) and then wages a war against the heavens for cursing him (part 3).

Episode 4: ATTACK!

2004-11-13T04:38:00.000-08:00

oh my goody-too-shoo-ness!!!! wannabies have got to be the second most annoying thing on the earth. First is of course guys who like to walk up to me in clubs and grab up on my family jewels... man that is so annoying, especially coz im like "oh wow fiesty... OH MY GOD!!!!!" the "oh my god" being when i notice its a dude in a wig and lipstick... but anyways back to the point! ok so the other day i was walking into the bathroom after coming home from hanging out and i just plopped my hat on my head so i didn't have to carry it in my head... but the way it looked in the mirror was that stupid freaking white-boy rapper look where the hat isnt even faced backwards or completely sideways but like in a 45 degree angle so that is like diagonally placed on your head... i actually laughed at myself for like 5 minutes. one part of me was pointing and laughing and the other was like "stop it... its not funny... YOU SUCK!" so yeah i realized how much being a poser sucks. But i still dont judge against wannabies cause all they want is to be accepted right? like me... i just want to be accepted... hahahahahahahhaaha ok i cant type anymore my fingers hurt like a broke them in a freak thumb war/mercy accident. this is ryan signing out, good night philippines.

Episode 3

2004-11-08T21:54:00.000-08:00

yay i finally finished a slow rock song. its a sad one... ive been trying to make one for a while but i start it out ok and then i get half way or so and i dont want to keep going so i stop and then when i come back to it i get composer's block and the song doesnt flow out of me anymore. But now ive finally made one and finished it. Its about 4 minutes long, and i actually wrote a poem/lyrics for it, but that definitely isnt getting posted haha. Anyways... just to keep track of when i made this song... im officially posting it now. "What it's like to Fall" by Ryan McCoy- composed november 7-9th. Recording date: Unknown (i dont know if i want to record this one or not) :)

Peace easy y'all... yo.
Next Episode: 4- the attack of the wannabies!

Episode 2

2004-11-01T06:27:00.000-08:00

YES! finally this FOOKING thing FOOKING!!! works. I havent been able to post on my FOOKING site because of the FOOKING FOOK-faced inter(FOOK)net. Anywho, back to business. So there i was, surfing the web trying to look for a good music college here in the philippines that i could do my undergraduate study in before i go to Berkelee... and guess what i came across... a place called Musicians Institute. Granted it isnt here in the Philippines so i still have to find a college here i can take my undergraduate in BUT my dreams of going to berkelee have flown out the window... MI (musicians institute) is so FOOKING fantastic... it made me wanna splooge... well no that would just be really fooking wierd but it is FOOKING NICE!! < all caps for a reason... cause it really is that nice. So yeah thats my new dream college.. im aiming for that now. Now all i have to do is get some research on where a good music college is HERE... besides UP because my testicles would cut off and fed to some crazy persons dog within my first week of enrollment there... its too hardcore for me haha. well anyways my wrists hurt from all this typing so piece easy fo sheezy my homey g-z. (or however you spell that snoop-dog language stuff)

Good Night All, happy Halloween and ALL SOULS DAY to everyone out there

I cant sing for poop...

2004-09-05T02:42:00.000-07:00

i was recording this song im making called inferno of hate and its supposed to have growl vocals in it so i tried to do some... only i havent written the lyrics so all im saying is HATE! or INFERNO OF HATE! every 15 seconds or so hahaha, and i established that im not supposed to do growl vocals... or vocals period so yeah im listening to it and laughing my arse off here haha :) oh yeah im gonna try this little link thing out... how do you do this? hmm...

Confusing

2004-09-03T05:53:00.000-07:00

All i know how to do is make posts on here... hahaha i need to find out how to do those neat little link columns that everyone else has so that i can make links to all my friends things :) but yeah anyways im not sure what to write about so ill tell you what bands i listen to and tell you the parts i like and dont like about them.
1.) Metallica: the vocals have progressed and only gotten better, james's voice is sort of like wine... becomes finer with age. But its sad to say that the guitar parts have done the exact opposite of this, because with time they have slowly degraded and become less aggressive and simpler. But their overall chemistry as a band as kept me as a devoted fan for many years. :)
2.) Megadeth: basically i love the complex and hard to play riffs and drum beats but the vocals at points are just so annoying... dont get me wrong dave mustaine can sing quite well but for me... his voice sounds like it comes from his nostrils just a bit too much.
3.) Symphony X: my new favorite band because they are just absolutely amazing musicians. I love the guitar riffs and organ sounds and the chemistry that the drums has with the guitar and bass lines and the vocalist has such an amazing range, like he is able to do hard growling vocals or sentimental sad ballad vocals. Now since i HAVE to say what part i dislike about each band im gonna have to say that Romeo (guitarist) always uses the same distortion sound and never a tuning change so all though the songs differ very much... it is very easy to notice the same sounding distortion on every album. Other than that..... absolutely amazing.

Yeah i would put other bands but i just dont feel like typing anymore and if you have made it this far than im VERY sure that you dont want to have to read anymore haha :) anyways, this is ryan signing... goodnight philippines

Episode 1

2004-09-02T03:31:00.000-07:00

the musical adventures of WHITEBOY! haha dont ask. ill start of with something about music since thats the thing i know most aboot :) symphony x rules!! haha ya thats it... no just kidding.

ok so the other day i was talking to someone about music and we got in an arguement about wether or not studing music theory and taking courses on musicology will make you an "intellectual" composer and attenuate your abilities of making metal or rock music... and i kept telling him that those claims are incoherent. In fact i think studying the science of music makes you a much better rock musician than you ever could be without something of the sort under your belt because it gives you an understanding of what elements are needed to produce this effect in a song and it helps you comprehend the psyche behind music... for instance how this progression of notes gives the listener a feeling of sorrow and another gives them a feeling of aggression... yeah so thats just my stand point on it... and i have nothing else to write about it so im spent.. until next time... this is ryan signing out, good night philippines :)